people

i keep telling myself i'm quitting facebook. i'll post on twitter a bunch, then take a peek at facebook......i can't help myself.....i end up commenting, updating, liking, uploading....i'm a pathetic facebook addict.
......the problem with facebook is the people....there are a lot of cowardly passive aggressive people on facebook, and i'm just overly sensitive enough to let them ruin my day......i can hide them. that's what i'll do....but i still inevitably check their page. what is it with me? am i a glutton for being annoyed? do i like it? sometimes i even wonder why i post and update on there. i find that my facebook persona is definitely the happier side of me. my blogging persona is the real me, i think? or is my twitter persona the real me??? hmmmm.....i hope the in person me is the real me actually.....but who interacts in person anymore? i don't even like talking on the phone much anymore...........sigh............

i think i should just start my entries with "hello jessica" from now on..................she knows the real me wherever i am......i think....... ;)

hurting

  

I have learned now that while those who speak about one's miseries usually hurt, those who keep silence hurt more. C.S. Lewis

i read this on my twitter page this morning and it hit me hard....sometimes the obvious has to be put into words...there are a lot of genuinely hurting people...right around me.....sometimes the loudest cry for encouragement is the silent one.

 

drafts

ha! i have nine drafts that i haven't posted. funny. i think i'm realizing that i'm a little more tentative about posting my thoughts in these past years.........

anyhoo..........back to my yukky coffee....

diversions

birth.______________________________________________________________________death.


there it is. life. you are born. you die. but most people don't have that straight line........i think we all divert off the path at some point. we all do. i think we learn from the diversions. or at least we should.

my diversions have made me who i am today. good. bad. ugly. beautiful. whatever. i think i'm finally on a straight line again. it took a good chunk of my life though. it's a sobering place to be however, when you realize that you've arrived at a better place at the expense of many people. bittersweet. most days i don't like it.


ugh. i made my coffee too weak. i hate that.

odyssey

i had a dream i was at a party. there were tons of celebrities there. i started asked them for donations because my honda odyssey is falling apart and we need to move to a better area. it was going well.
until i woke up.

i'm trusting that god can do these things.....especially if alec baldwin and paris hilton will in my dreams....ha ha....

happiness = cupcakes

i figured it was time for a happy, positive post.

taking emily and donna to georgetown today. we are going to georgetown cupcakes.

the end.