.....found the song i was looking for, actually dale did, in about 2 seconds......sometimes you hear a song that makes you feel like there IS someone out there that has been through what you are going through....i can't wait to experience the last 3 lines of the song.....i think i'm starting to believe it will happen....



Why, why are You still here with me
Didn't You see what I've done?
In my shame I want to run and hide myself
But it's here I see the truth
I don't deserve You

But I need You to love me, and I
I won't keep my heart from You this time
And I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me

I, I have wasted so much time
Pushing You away from me
I just never saw how You could cherish me
'Cause You're a God who has all things
And still You want me

Your love makes me forget what I have been
Your love makes me see who I really am
Your love makes me forget what I have been

.....you know you've left rhode island when..........

....you can drive 30 minutes and only pass one dunkin donuts AND it happens to
be part of a gas station
....80% of the radio stations are country and 80's rock
....people refer to what county they live in
....there are 2 sheriffs on every corner - yeah - sheriffs
....the only italian restaurant in town is closed
....the nearest landmark is zekiah swamp
....nobody sells dough for homemade pizza
....people order sweet tea at fast food restaurants
....high school fundraiser - 'mulch sale'
....you can name your driveway and it becomes a 'place'....possum trot place, no
place, harold johnson place.....
....people want you to say 'park the car in the yard'
....you get asked if you lived near long island
....you don't feel like you are at home anymore

really miss rhode island.......its just not the same here.....

so, tomorrow is easter......
happy easter.


i'll take you back - by jeremy camp


the reason why I stand
the answer lies in you
you hung to make me strong
though my praise was few
when I fall I bring your name down

but I have found in you
a heart that bleeds
forgiveness replacing all these thoughts of painful memories
but I know that your response will always be

i'll take you back always
even when your fight is over now
i'll take you back always
even when the pain is coming through
i'll take you back

you satisfy this cry
of what I'm looking for
it will take all I can
and lay it down
before the throne of endless grace, now
that radiates what's true

i'm in the only place
that erases all these faults
that have overtaken me
but I know
that your response will always be

i'll take you back always
even when your fight is over now
i'll take you back always
even when the pain is coming through
i'll take you back

i can only speak with a grateful heart
as I'm pierced by this gift of your love
i will always bring an offering
i can never thank you enough

you take me back always
even when my fighting is over now
you take me back always
even when my pain is coming through
you take me back