.....found the song i was looking for, actually dale did, in about 2 seconds......sometimes you hear a song that makes you feel like there IS someone out there that has been through what you are going through....i can't wait to experience the last 3 lines of the song.....i think i'm starting to believe it will happen....



Why, why are You still here with me
Didn't You see what I've done?
In my shame I want to run and hide myself
But it's here I see the truth
I don't deserve You

But I need You to love me, and I
I won't keep my heart from You this time
And I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me

I, I have wasted so much time
Pushing You away from me
I just never saw how You could cherish me
'Cause You're a God who has all things
And still You want me

Your love makes me forget what I have been
Your love makes me see who I really am
Your love makes me forget what I have been